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I hate to admit it, but art is the only belief system I can have faith in. And by art I mean, music, poetry, fiction, comedy, theatre, . . . even philosophy and religion and magic and folklore and even pyschology and politics. I don't have an agenda. I don't think I know what the world needs. My only concern is art. If I can write something about myself, or about women, or about mental illness, or about Donald Trump, or about Alexendria Cortez, or about these Rebel Flag people around here, or these Black Lives Matter people around here, or homosexuals, or my family, or whatever . . . I'm going to do it. And if they don't like it, they can go fuck themselves. I fuck myself almost every day. . . . People in my area despise me for supporting some of Alexandria Cortez' ideas. And I know she has a middle name, but I can't remember it. Well, I was wrote something making fun of her last week, and that offended people. I wrote something defending her this weekend, and that offended people. And then I said I have mixe
d feelings about her, and that offended people. Then I said, go fuck yourselves. And I'm hoping that'll endear them to me a little more.
I made a mistake in the first half of the message. I made a typo, I'm sure you all can see it. But at the moment, it won't let me change it. It's not the site's fault, it's just the cheap technology I'm using.
I'm not going for this whole you're either with me or you're against me mentality. Everybody can say whatever they want, we have free speech, at least in America, but as long as you pick a side. Well, fuck that. If I want to talk nonsense, I'm going to talk nonsense. If I want to write nonsense I'm going to write nonsense. . . . I talk to people on all sides of these lame arguments. I'm not going to pick some abstract side.
No one side is evil.
Now that I looked again, I made more than one typo.
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I'm an anarchist, which doesn't work in real life. I like open borders, let them all in, I like guns and bombs, I also hate insurance so hate healthcare, I also think drugs are mostly okay and suicide and abortions. I don't like taxes or raising minimum wage or tax breaks to millionaires. I just shouldn't vote and therefore don't vote because unless the gov is coming after me or my family I just want to eat sleep and play music
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I find it funny how for most people, myself included, we need something to believe in order to keep ourselves going. For some it's religion, for people like us, it's art. It's as if our consciousness left a hole in us that's always hungry for some grand narrative or mythology that explains ourselves and our surroundings.
That's what I like about art though. It doesn't explain; it shows. Then I can do the explaining on my own. Religion seems to remove everything in between, like a sandwich with just (holy) bread.
Our self-awareness is the reason we know that that's us in the mirror. And we're obsessed with our reflections, like narcissists; and the minds of these guys are perfect breeding grounds for delusions.
As for writing about politics I mean, whatever we write is bound to piss off someone so politics really isn't so different. I advocate for a lot of positions that are left wing but I feel like there are more things to capture in writing about misinformation, poverty, mass-shootings than statistics and why medicare is a right and shouldn't be left to the free market.
I'm just babbling so some of this will probably not make sense or none of it will. Just trying to contribute to the dialogue 
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Before anyone points out the semantic flaw in my argument. Yes I believe that the art of art, the art of politics, the art of psychology, yes these are abstract subjects that artists have to fill in. I support abstract in that sense. I don't support or not support the abstract notions of groups of people. I make fun of groups of people all the time, because a group is an abstraction. I make fun of individuals too, but why not?
As for the comment above me. We need narratives. Some people pick a religion. Some pick a political thing. I just can't. . . . And I wish I could make music. Instrumental music. Something that has no verbal/intellectual context. Just sound that can let me release my tension and emotions until I don't need to anymore. But then some group would just claim that the notes and chords were arranged in a way that spelled out something satanic. And I mean satanic in a secular sense, and a religious sense. And I mean religious in several senses: any that you can think or feel of.
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i believe in family. will expand later. breakfast is ready; i also believe in breakfast.
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I believe in family. And I believe in beautiful women. My family have told me not to write about them. Beautiful women, well, they don't talk to me, but other people tell me that it's not a good idea to write about women. . . . I've also been told not to write about mental illness. And I said, Wait a minute, aint I supposed to be mentally ill myself? . . . But apparently I have to consider other mentally ill people's feelings. . . . So I apologize in advance, apparently I'm only allowed to write about myself. No, scratch that, a man told me Saturday that he was offended by me writing about myself.
And no, I don't believe in family. But I don't really have a choice in the matter.
Somebody told me today that I should stop writing the silly stuff I write about and write about something serious that people can agree on, like the environment.
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(03-21-2019, 07:26 AM)rowens Wrote: . My family have told me not to write about them.
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I wrote a song inspired by a friend of mine and showed it to him. He called me creepy and said the poem was sad and never spoke to me again. I looked him up on Google a few weeks ago (Facebook didn't have him) and he drowned last year in a lake.
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Well at least he never has to listen to songs about him again.
Another thing somebody told me recently is that most good writers throughout history are offensive in some way, and so if people find me offensive it's because I'm trying to be like that. And I said why would a writer WANT to be a good writer? If you think these writers are good, they must have been doing something wrong. . . . And that person said these writers aren't good. People just say they are. . . . And I said maybe I'm good and you just say I'm not.
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never stop writing about the silly stuff: family; i really do believe in it. mine is close nit, loyal, funny quick to anger and easy to forgive. i left them 14 years ago but never really left. i see them every year sometimes for months at a time. we all still love each other. unlike many i have good family [ maybe not so good as people but great as family]. we also have an extended family which comprises of some close friends. these people are as important to us as our own bloodline is. when i had heart surgery in the philippines the hospital couldn't get enough of my blood [i needed 20 plus pints] a friend rang up all the local radio station and the u.s and uk embassies to ask them to donate blood for me. it worked they donated more than i needed. family means never being poor [well my family does] when i go home i pay for very little, when family come out here they pay very little. my operation cost me 14,000 pounds
sterling more than i expected. my ex gave me the money which i've since given back. she's my best friend.both her and the kids look after me when i go home. if they need something i look after them. beautiful women? i believe in beautiful people. my step daughter being one of the most beautiful people i ever met. there's not a cruel bone in her body and yes, you are probably mentally ill, i see the signs  i use to believe in beer and drugs and partying but unlike my family they turned on me, the beer became flat, the drugs became dangerous and the parties became too loud. i had a massive heart attack on mother's day and another on fathers day now it's wrapped in a Teflon net to stop it popping open. the one constant in my life was family, as a child it was a bad one. beatings, kids homes and lots of other bad stuff. all that shit made me work at it with my own. i did let them down a time or two but they and i were always loved. not like a piece of art, not like a poem or a piece music, not like anything we were all just loved. nothing more nothing less; everything else was gravy. i think talking about yourself and your mental illness could be helpful to others as well as being fun the rest. i take most stuff with a pinch of salt on line so you being a headbanger isn't going to throw me. i always thought people preferred the silly stuff. i do.
(03-21-2019, 07:26 AM)rowens Wrote: I believe in family. And I believe in beautiful women. My family have told me not to write about them. Beautiful women, well, they don't talk to me, but other people tell me that it's not a good idea to write about women. . . . I've also been told not to write about mental illness. And I said, Wait a minute, aint I supposed to be mentally ill myself? . . . But apparently I have to consider other mentally ill people's feelings. . . . So I apologize in advance, apparently I'm only allowed to write about myself. No, scratch that, a man told me Saturday that he was offended by me writing about myself.
And no, I don't believe in family. But I don't really have a choice in the matter.
Somebody told me today that I should stop writing the silly stuff I write about and write about something serious that people can agree on, like the environment.
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All I want to do myself is die into the art. To just work on stuff constantly. The little social skills I had are fading. I'm not talking negatively, I'm glad I can get away. And have things to work on constantly. The only problem is this woman I know. But I don't have to worry about that much longer, because she's so beautiful that being around her actually makes me sick. I've never been affected this way before. Even though she's good to me, her beauty is so above the normal human being's that my senses overload. Like she's an alien or something.
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