Edited: Spiritual Warfare: The Battle Within

[conroy_01]

Past attacks me
Darkness consumes me
Guilt and depression overwhelm me
Devil attacks me
Beats me down
Death is nearby
Waiting, inviting, welcoming
Using all my strength to keep them at bay
Fading away is my spirit
Weakness overcoming me
Hope is disappearing
Light is shrinking, slipping away
God is hiding
Gone from my sight
Maybe just blind
Soul is empty
Mind is tangled
Spinning, running, never ceasing
Waiting for the crash
Fearful, anxious, dreadful
"Save Me From Myself"

Part 2:
Never ending battle
Fighting for survival
Enduring pain
Attacked from every direction
Attacker hides in the shadows
I'm standing alone
No sword
No armor
Weapons just out of reach
Crawling, reaching, slipping away
Death waiting around the corner
Juat waiting for me to give up
Pushing on I must
Hoping for relief
Unable to acheive it
Discouraged, tired, unmotivated
Losing the battle
Is there any hope?
Or is all lost?
"The Battle"

Part 3:
Beaten
Bloodied
Battered
Bruised
Barely able to stand
Sight is blurry
Raspy breathing
Death stretches out his hand
My enemy begging me to give up
The hits keep coming
I stumble
I fall down
Struggle to stand back up
Fighting to land a blow
Waiting for hope
An opening
Some help
I'm all alone
Standing by myself
Strength evaporating
Will is flickering, dimming
No end in sight
Knees are shaking
Standing alone
Facing the darkness filled with an army
Unknown where the next hit will come from
Slide one foot forward
Unable to lift it off the ground
I raise up my fists
Looking forward
Remembering my motto
"Never give up
Never give in
Let the light shine
Fight until the end
Never back down
Never run away"
The flame of will roars deep within
Burning brighter
Remembering those words
What I am
Who I am
Fuels the will within
Roaring fire shines light into the darkness
Finally catching a glimpse of my enemy
I ready myself
Looking ahead
A smile creeps across my face
"Rise Above"

Part 4:
The battle rages on
Months have passed by
Hope has dimmed
But has not disappeared
Helpful hand extended
Just need to grab ahold
Discipline is lacking
Can't use my weapon
Unsure of what i am afraid of
Myself?
My enemy?
My protector?
The fear is overwhelming
The unknown is paralyzing
Moving forward without faith is unwise
Regaining faith is near impossible
Without the faith the war is lost
Without the helping hand
Without my weapon
Defeat is inevitable
Destruction is guaranteed
Death's flames nearly cover all
Must remove burning parts
Must rise up from the ashes
This war is winnable
My will, my heart, my spirit rages on
All hang by a thread
It is bound to break
When it does will i give in?
Or will i find new strength?
Darkness grows
It covers all
Forces me to fight in the dark
I must go on
"Darkest Before the Dawn"

Part 5 coming soon

[conroy_01]

This is a poem of a series currently there is four will probably have a fifth to finish the series. The series is titled spiritual warfare: the battle within

[rowens]

I make a living of spiritual warfare. The pay is bad.

The poem doesn't have much to it.

[conroy_01]

It fits in well with the others

[Brownlie]

http://www.danagioia.net/essays/e13ways.htm

[rowens]

You can edit your post to add the other parts.

[conroy_01]

Good idea i was just going to put up five different posts

[Bunx]

spiritual warfare?
hmm
Past attacks me
Darkness consumes me
Guilt and depression overwhelm me
Devil attacks me
Beats me down
Death is nearby
Waiting, inviting, welcoming
Using all my strength to keep them at bay
Fading away is my spirit
Weakness overcoming me
Hope is disappearing
Light is shrinking, slipping away
God is hiding
Gone from my sight
Maybe just blind
Soul is empty
Mind is tangled
Spinning, running, never ceasing
Waiting for the crash
Fearful, anxious, dreadful
"Save Me From Myself"

"fearful, anxious, dreadful"
i would say to use more commas in the sentence. like "waiting, for the crash."
instead of
"WAITING FOR THE CRASH"
does crash mean rehabilitation? or texting and driving?

[conroy_01]

spiritual warfare?
hmm
Past attacks me
Darkness consumes me
Guilt and depression overwhelm me
Devil attacks me
Beats me down
Death is nearby
Waiting, inviting, welcoming
Using all my strength to keep them at bay
Fading away is my spirit
Weakness overcoming me
Hope is disappearing
Light is shrinking, slipping away
God is hiding
Gone from my sight
Maybe just blind
Soul is empty
Mind is tangled
Spinning, running, never ceasing
Waiting for the crash
Fearful, anxious, dreadful
"Save Me From Myself"

"fearful, anxious, dreadful"
i would say to use more commas in the sentence. like "waiting, for the crash."
instead of
"WAITING FOR THE CRASH"
does crash mean rehabilitation? or texting and driving?

Crash means being so overwhelmed and worn down to the point my body and mind just crash.

[milo]

spiritual warfare?
hmm
Past attacks me
Darkness consumes me
Guilt and depression overwhelm me
Devil attacks me
Beats me down
Death is nearby
Waiting, inviting, welcoming
Using all my strength to keep them at bay
Fading away is my spirit
Weakness overcoming me
Hope is disappearing
Light is shrinking, slipping away
God is hiding
Gone from my sight
Maybe just blind
Soul is empty
Mind is tangled
Spinning, running, never ceasing
Waiting for the crash
Fearful, anxious, dreadful
"Save Me From Myself"

"fearful, anxious, dreadful"
i would say to use more commas in the sentence. like "waiting, for the crash."
instead of
"WAITING FOR THE CRASH"
does crash mean rehabilitation? or texting and driving?

Crash means being so overwhelmed and worn down to the point my body and mind just crash.

what is your purpose for posting it here?

[conroy_01]

Just sharing

[Rose Love]

Just sharing

In that spirit, I have to say that this really reminded me of a much shorter poem I once wrote. Parts of your poem even seem to be seeking to express some of the same things I expressed in my poem. I submitted it a while ago for critique on this site, so I'll just post a link to the thread and you can read it there:
If
("If" is the name of the poem)

[conroy_01]

Just sharing

In that spirit, I have to say that this really reminded me of a much shorter poem I once wrote. Parts of your poem even seem to be seeking to express some of the same things I expressed in my poem. I submitted it a while ago for critique on this site, so I'll just post a link to the thread and you can read it there:
If
("If" is the name of the poem)

It is very similar. Both seem to be quite personal. Mine are just long because there are several and i wrote each over a couple of months. I do like how your's is written. Very nice.

[Rose Love]

It is very similar. Both seem to be quite personal. Mine are just long because there are several and i wrote each over a couple of months. I do like how your's is written. Very nice.

Thanks. So I could relate to yours.