Constant Heart Attack

[Eyesofdeepblue]

My very first poem.. want to know if I'm any good.


Constant Heart Attack

I fake a smile so they won't see
What's going on beneath, it's killing me
There are things I wish to know
Memories I pray to let go 
Sometimes I wonder, "are we meant to be?"
More times I hate what you've done to me 
"I cheated on you" you said as a fact
You are my constant heart attack

I gave you everything, my love, my heart
You ran with it, tore it all apart
One night, one girl, one wrong move
Now my world is broken, I don't know what to do
6 months gone and I still find myself going back
You are my constant heart attack 

Flashback to the nights filled with you and me
Your lips on my skin, We fit together so perfectly
My nails down your back, your hands in my hair
I risked thinking there was no better pair
Now, this is only a memory
A consistent reminder of what used to be
It's hard to stand tall without what I lack
You are my constant heart attack

You and I work so well together, but never apart
We went separate ways, you with pieces of my heart
Away from me, you began to fade out
Ran back into the arms of the one thing you couldn't live without
You hurt me so bad, I can't even imagine a comeback
You are my constant heart attack

And now my bottom drawer houses your letters
For some reason, contact with you makes me feel better
Knowing you're growing and making progress is great
You've had time to think and contemplate
So for now my emotions and heartache don't show
They are not all that important for you to know
I'll be here, support-full and laid-back
But still, You are my constant heart attack