The Evil Within You I Adore.

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I wanted to redeem myself for those things we did
But when I hear you I can't stop myself.
A smile arrives like the evil toad
You left in my throat and cuts me with it's fakery.
You said 'Keep it secret.
She never has to know.'
But I want to be more than someone's mistress,
And to be loved you have to go.
I never intended it to be this tempestous.
Leave me alone now please so I don't want you more.
There's a good boy, as I fall to the floor,
Please don't look back, I'm just fine,
Like there was never a vicious crime
And in full swing I can rhyme and feel,
All that took place doesn't seem real.
Late at night you would hold me
No, I can't remember the good.
It was just something that happened,
Something that never should.
I'd be better off going to sleep
There is no secret I've locked so deep
And I know you hate these mushy tales
But everything else in my brain simply fails.
You're the one that makes me feel
And the one that makes me ache,
Is that a good enough way
To say I loved you too?
I guess this was something
We just had to go through.
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First Poem on this site.