I wish

[wasellajam]

I wish I were here
The way they are
Having fun with beer under the sun
So I take another one and smile
But it is like I am somewhere behind

I wish I were here
The way they see me
A pretty face and friendly eyes
So many lucky guys they say
But none can reach my heart

Why am I somewhere else
Deep inside where I cannot escape
From the heavy voice that squeezes me
My eyes my dreams my hopes
As if I am not here

Hi, Antonia, I can relate to your poem and it's constructed with intent, a cohesive read. I have some questions about it:
L 5: What do you mean by "behind'? In what way are they ahead of our Narrator? I'd like this line to explain more of exactly how the N is feeling.
L6-10 are very clear but do you think you may be able to express L10 in a more original way?

Also, you might think about how punctuation and dropping the first word capitalization would effect the poem, try it 
and see which you prefer.

Thanks for posting, I hope you enjoy the site.