Unwanted Gifts (CW: Language)

[fastmarshmallow]

Unwanted Gifts
 
Let me fucking hear
song lyrics, strange names,
consonants muted
and bad guessing games.
 
No superpower,
just poorly fused brain, --> At first, I was wondering whether the lack of an article does work here. But as I read on, I realised it complimented 'deep-hoarded shame' quite well, and seems to fit the general musicality you've got going on throughout. 
not lifelong failure
and deep-hoarded shame.
 
I’m praised for my smarts,
am scrambling at life, --> Not sure whether 'am' is right here? Perhaps 'and' works better: "I'm praised for my smarts//and scrambling at life,"
tear up my test scores,
let chaos run rife.
 
Some call these my gifts,
they come with no bow,
they don’t give, just take,
it’s all just for show. 

Love how you stretch the theme of gifts throughout this entire stanza: gift, bow, give, show etc. There is a real musicality here which I don't think is jarring and actually compliments the dark theme of the poem.
 
Disabled, hear me
loud my lyrics here,
words can sharpen thoughts
if they choose to hear.

I like how you play with the homophone in this final stanza: hear/here. The subject, 'lyrics' in the middle with the adjective preceding it, in this case doesn't sound forced and I think actually adds to the musicality of your poem, which I detected from the beginning.


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I'm not sure where I've gone with this. I don't typically rhyme either... that's a new departure. I've tweaked and changed it, but it feels too self absorbed tbh. WOuld love to know how it sits with others.