she smiles - edit4

[dukealien]

edit3;


she smiles
and feeling so relieved for her
in that warm swift moment
I start to cry except
it’s gone before my tears can well

then returning terror locks
her features tight
knowing only that she cannot
understand or put a name
to anything she sees

smile lights again
dove-like
I want to turn away
before the next fright
in this cursed alternation
but I can’t

not damnation
since neither deserved
nor endless

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Trying to apply the latest critique.  S3 has grown again, but actually simplified a little?  Funny how "alternation" is one of those words that loses its meaning if you say it often enough. 

Yes, I mean "dove-like" to be ambiguous - is it the smile, or the narrator who wants to turn his head away as doves, in seeming modesty, do.