11-13-2025, 10:09 AM
"In His Name, I am None"
I begged aloud to empty air
for any sign that He was there,
Until at last His heat I felt;
It shocked me silent as I knelt.
Away I ran, a frightened bride;
He found my vows on altar-sides.
Upon Himself He placed my blame,
Disrobed me of my long-learnt shame.
He spoke
His silence split me wide
as floods of flame erased my pride;
His voice drowned each breath I drew,
His eyes the dark I vanished through.
My hope and fear became my pyre;
God tastes Himself within my fire.
My mirror melts inside its frame
and I am lost
inside His name.
No more the bride,
No more the groom.
No more the voice,
No more the tomb.
All hunger spent,
All borders gone,
The fire remains
and I am none.
I have worked on this one on and off for yonks, but I cannot get it to sing. The middle stanza especially eludes me, I cannot get the delirious, desperate, ecstatic voice it needs. Any suggestions about this or thoughts about any of it would be very welcome ::pray::
I begged aloud to empty air
for any sign that He was there,
Until at last His heat I felt;
It shocked me silent as I knelt.
Away I ran, a frightened bride;
He found my vows on altar-sides.
Upon Himself He placed my blame,
Disrobed me of my long-learnt shame.
He spoke
His silence split me wide
as floods of flame erased my pride;
His voice drowned each breath I drew,
His eyes the dark I vanished through.
My hope and fear became my pyre;
God tastes Himself within my fire.
My mirror melts inside its frame
and I am lost
inside His name.
No more the bride,
No more the groom.
No more the voice,
No more the tomb.
All hunger spent,
All borders gone,
The fire remains
and I am none.
I have worked on this one on and off for yonks, but I cannot get it to sing. The middle stanza especially eludes me, I cannot get the delirious, desperate, ecstatic voice it needs. Any suggestions about this or thoughts about any of it would be very welcome ::pray::