12-11-2023, 01:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-11-2023, 01:56 AM by RiverNotch.)
what will you see
in me, when we finally
no longer just remember
the smoky chamber and dusty tomes
and fear of sunlight breaking up
our first and only meeting? in your long and painful absence,
i have taken up the now too-needed task
of fully filling in my now too-spacious bed
with myself -- i've colored my hair red,
paled my skin, and thinned my wrists
all through malnutrition -- like some kind of fool
i imagine you'd despise
through your flat affection,
your mere amicability, however earnest
turns the conversation. will you see
another man emasculated
by austerity and the golden dawn
it invites? or perhaps
i'll be another funhouse mirror
this time granting you an adam's apple---
either way, the image is grotesque,
and so i pray you've come to love grotesques,
tympana, and other common features
of ecclesiastical construction...
in me, when we finally
no longer just remember
the smoky chamber and dusty tomes
and fear of sunlight breaking up
our first and only meeting? in your long and painful absence,
i have taken up the now too-needed task
of fully filling in my now too-spacious bed
with myself -- i've colored my hair red,
paled my skin, and thinned my wrists
all through malnutrition -- like some kind of fool
i imagine you'd despise
through your flat affection,
your mere amicability, however earnest
turns the conversation. will you see
another man emasculated
by austerity and the golden dawn
it invites? or perhaps
i'll be another funhouse mirror
this time granting you an adam's apple---
either way, the image is grotesque,
and so i pray you've come to love grotesques,
tympana, and other common features
of ecclesiastical construction...