11-19-2023, 12:47 AM
Each night my grandparents would
tune in to the lotto, having
jotted down some numbers on
whatever scrap of paper they could find.
They never purchased any tickets,
to my knowledge, though I never
asked them why: it was a ritual
long preceding me, one I believed
I did not have the right
to question, not unless
I joined them. Maybe it was
for the thrill of sudden wealth
without the attendant baggage -- the legal fees,
the fawning kin, even the ire of the saints
for having put one's faith in luck
and somehow being right -- much like how
I'd rather watch another play
a horror game than be myself
the patsy, but the truth
went with them late last year....
tune in to the lotto, having
jotted down some numbers on
whatever scrap of paper they could find.
They never purchased any tickets,
to my knowledge, though I never
asked them why: it was a ritual
long preceding me, one I believed
I did not have the right
to question, not unless
I joined them. Maybe it was
for the thrill of sudden wealth
without the attendant baggage -- the legal fees,
the fawning kin, even the ire of the saints
for having put one's faith in luck
and somehow being right -- much like how
I'd rather watch another play
a horror game than be myself
the patsy, but the truth
went with them late last year....