11-08-2023, 03:31 AM
There was another part where the Devil showed up and told me that he would take on any bad things I've done. I realized later that that's what Jesus does, too. We can blame all our bad impulses on the Devil and absolve all our bad behaviors through Jesus.
Jesus & The Joker stand high in my room. They are two of the Figures in the Doctrine of the Three Crosses. The Jester, Healer and Thief.
These months, I don't go anyway except in the woods and fields and roads. I have made Feast Days, one or two a month when I eat whatever and drink and make merry.
The rest of the days, I wander around, stopping every few hours for rituals and a breathing-posture method I made up that balances my neurology.
The only problem I have is the bleeding. Nothing seems to remedy it except total fasts. So, it is apparently digestive oriented. It happens less and less the less I eat and hurts less the more I exercise, which is not how it was at first. I simply don't think about it, and it doesn't distract me. And it's a go-to trope in my personal mythos.
Juaquin Phoenix's character from The Master is my favorite of his. That's how I see the world. Jean Genet said that if people saw him as a lowlife criminal, that's the world he will depict. William Burroughs aestheticized being a drug addict, Artaud being crazy, Genet being a thief. I intend to aestheticize being a creep. The kind of guy who says, Hey, you want to read my poems. The kind of guy with the social skills of Lloyd and Harry from Dumb and Dumber. People who have jobs and families can't be seen with me anymore, they could actually get penalized. I always know how to walk in the most off-putting way, I don't even have to think about it. I always know the exact wrong thing to say in the right manner.
I have no interest in stories. I have some novels I might get back to one day, but I don't think about them. I'm into situations. Occurrences, Atmospheric Descriptions, Anecdotes. Narratives are only useful for narrative poems and for the Symbol Sets of Rituals. Moment to moment, to call things moments, is like Aqua Teen Hunger Force episodes, continuity is situational. You have character types in each of the characters that feed over from one moment to the next, but whatever happens is irrelevant.
The whole of human reality and society and culture is materials for jokes and poems. That's all.
Jesus & The Joker stand high in my room. They are two of the Figures in the Doctrine of the Three Crosses. The Jester, Healer and Thief.
These months, I don't go anyway except in the woods and fields and roads. I have made Feast Days, one or two a month when I eat whatever and drink and make merry.
The rest of the days, I wander around, stopping every few hours for rituals and a breathing-posture method I made up that balances my neurology.
The only problem I have is the bleeding. Nothing seems to remedy it except total fasts. So, it is apparently digestive oriented. It happens less and less the less I eat and hurts less the more I exercise, which is not how it was at first. I simply don't think about it, and it doesn't distract me. And it's a go-to trope in my personal mythos.
Juaquin Phoenix's character from The Master is my favorite of his. That's how I see the world. Jean Genet said that if people saw him as a lowlife criminal, that's the world he will depict. William Burroughs aestheticized being a drug addict, Artaud being crazy, Genet being a thief. I intend to aestheticize being a creep. The kind of guy who says, Hey, you want to read my poems. The kind of guy with the social skills of Lloyd and Harry from Dumb and Dumber. People who have jobs and families can't be seen with me anymore, they could actually get penalized. I always know how to walk in the most off-putting way, I don't even have to think about it. I always know the exact wrong thing to say in the right manner.
I have no interest in stories. I have some novels I might get back to one day, but I don't think about them. I'm into situations. Occurrences, Atmospheric Descriptions, Anecdotes. Narratives are only useful for narrative poems and for the Symbol Sets of Rituals. Moment to moment, to call things moments, is like Aqua Teen Hunger Force episodes, continuity is situational. You have character types in each of the characters that feed over from one moment to the next, but whatever happens is irrelevant.
The whole of human reality and society and culture is materials for jokes and poems. That's all.