10-29-2023, 11:24 PM
I never liked any kind of opiate or synthetic pain killers, I liked the stimulating effect alcohol had on me. For me, alcohol suppresses whatever neurological problems hinder my sober life. The irony is that I'd be able to drive a car drunk better than sober. I've been able to solve those problems without alcohol, but John Constantine never bothered learning how to drive, why should I?
The point about the drugs is that I never wanted to risk the sexual side effects that they can cause. I'm a Wine, Women and Song man. But while over-indulging in the Dionysian Aspects, I engaged with the Shadow-Side of Christ and took the drugs for my friend's piss tests. So, while my Venus Invocations are no less Solid and of Appropriate Length, the pain and the never-ending blood-spilling of all my lower Vital organs for the last few years should have me making arrangements with Fear, too.
So far, I haven't solved the problem organically, though I have Mentally. I've always experimented on myself, and trying to heal myself has led me to things that healed other ailments.
Actually the pain and the bleeding seem to be decreasing. And I did some I Ching about the problem a few months ago, and was told that I would recover. The words were very specific and to the point as I Ching always is. And speaking of I Ching, there's a new book that seems very promising to not be simply a rehashing of all the other books on the subject.
I Ching, the Oracle: A Practical Guide to the Book of Changes: An updated translation annotated with cultural & historical references, restoring the I Ching to its shamanic origins: Wen, Benebell: 9781623178734: Amazon.com: Books
Something about how the Sun lights the Earth at this time of year makes it perfect for these kinds of intense studies on these subjects. And even better for practicing, engaging. The Layered Energy of the Holiday Season, too.
The New and Strange and more recent poets and artists correspond for me with Spring and Bright and Light colors and freshness. John Ashbery seems to go further than Stevens in that meaningful nonsense direction. And I have come to find that he fits the post-New Year Janus Atmosphere. I've had his complete poems for years, but haven't gone very far into them. I've gathered some expensive and rare University Published studies of his poetry, and am going to dig into it [the poetry] come January. By then, I Divine that I Will be healed of my ailments. And I'll put in a Word with Raphael and Hermes for you, too.
I Ching is pure flow. It never occurs to you to doubt it or rationalize it. What is there to doubt even if you were to? Doubt doesn't apply. There is no doubt, not even a lack of doubt.
The point about the drugs is that I never wanted to risk the sexual side effects that they can cause. I'm a Wine, Women and Song man. But while over-indulging in the Dionysian Aspects, I engaged with the Shadow-Side of Christ and took the drugs for my friend's piss tests. So, while my Venus Invocations are no less Solid and of Appropriate Length, the pain and the never-ending blood-spilling of all my lower Vital organs for the last few years should have me making arrangements with Fear, too.
So far, I haven't solved the problem organically, though I have Mentally. I've always experimented on myself, and trying to heal myself has led me to things that healed other ailments.
Actually the pain and the bleeding seem to be decreasing. And I did some I Ching about the problem a few months ago, and was told that I would recover. The words were very specific and to the point as I Ching always is. And speaking of I Ching, there's a new book that seems very promising to not be simply a rehashing of all the other books on the subject.
I Ching, the Oracle: A Practical Guide to the Book of Changes: An updated translation annotated with cultural & historical references, restoring the I Ching to its shamanic origins: Wen, Benebell: 9781623178734: Amazon.com: Books
Something about how the Sun lights the Earth at this time of year makes it perfect for these kinds of intense studies on these subjects. And even better for practicing, engaging. The Layered Energy of the Holiday Season, too.
The New and Strange and more recent poets and artists correspond for me with Spring and Bright and Light colors and freshness. John Ashbery seems to go further than Stevens in that meaningful nonsense direction. And I have come to find that he fits the post-New Year Janus Atmosphere. I've had his complete poems for years, but haven't gone very far into them. I've gathered some expensive and rare University Published studies of his poetry, and am going to dig into it [the poetry] come January. By then, I Divine that I Will be healed of my ailments. And I'll put in a Word with Raphael and Hermes for you, too.
I Ching is pure flow. It never occurs to you to doubt it or rationalize it. What is there to doubt even if you were to? Doubt doesn't apply. There is no doubt, not even a lack of doubt.