Garbage Human

[moot]

Why do you sit there and judge me for being a loner
When the only time i feel lonely is around you.

You who bring me down because if its me, its not you.
You who judge me before you know me.
Because it's easier to punish me, if you think i deserve it.

You taught me that if so many people hate me there must be a reason
That there is something wrong with me.
That i deserve it.

So many comments and punishments brought me down.
So that when you i'm told i am pretty, i want to cry, *I'm*
Because all it did was remind me that i wasn't. *I*

Everyday i try to repent so tomorrow will change, *I*
Because I dont want to keep living for a tomorrow that will always be a yesterday.
I regret every day, I should have already ended it.

In time i will be done with yesterday and it will be my last. *I*
You drive me closer to my last, you are killing me.
But its okay, I deserve it, don't I?

but i no longer care. *I*
It's my last yesterday.
Because you taught me and i learned. *I*


If it's someone else, it's not me.
and i judge their flaws,
because they deserve it and i don't feel bad.

People hate them for a reason.
There is something wrong with them.
They deserve it.

I do it because I can't live another yesterday,
but i can survive a tomorrow.
Even if the price of my tomorrow is their yesterday.

but one day will be their last
and maybe they won't get a tomorrow.
I am killing them *This could flow better. It feels sudden and out of place*
but its okay, they deserve it, don't they?

....

I saw that *what did you see?*

Why do you sit there and judge me
for becoming you.

Because this happens every fucking day
and we don't want to think we are part of the problem
We want to think that we are good people

So we call others garbage people *This feels out of place, 'We want to think we are good people' followed by the line 'So we call ourselves garbage people'
We tell ourselves they are disposable.
So we don't feel guilty sacrificing them for our own gain

one day will be their last
and maybe they won't get a tomorrow.
because as long as it is anyone else, its not us. *I Liked the coherence and imagery evoked from these lines*

and if they are flawed
They deserve it and we don't feel bad.

Why do you sit there and judge others. *this line appears to repeat previous lines of the poem*
You do it to justify your own actions
You do it to hide your own flaws, even from yourself.
because if it's someone else its not you.


You dont want to be a garbage human
You dont want to be disposable.
You want to be validated.
You want to be worthy.
You want it to be anyone but you.


Why do we judge each other
When we are all human. *is this a rhetorical question?*

We are not garbage
We are not disposable
We are flawed but we are worthy
We all just want to be accepted
None of us want to be the victim

We all want to live to see better days.
When we have a bad day we don't want to think tomorrow will just be another yesterday.

Why do we think the only way to change that is by becoming what we hate?
Is it easier to validate ourselves by attacking others?
Does stepping on others bring us closer to the top?

It does, but is it worth it.
If you take away the lies you tell yourself,
Would you still feel like you are a good person?
That people like you?
Do you like you?


I'm not going to tell you that that better day will just come along. *that that accidental repetition. Do you mean Days?*
It wont not unless you do something to change your yesterday
but that doesn't mean that you can take your tomorrow from someone else. *Good, I like the idea of a thief, stealing another persons time. This line evoked this thought*

where i want to go with this should be obvious i just need some help stylizing it...

I like this work. It is direct. I do not think that all poetry should rhyme. I think that this work could be more cohesive. There is some repetition that could be removed to improve this poem
I liked the following lines:

'one day will be their last

and maybe they won't get a tomorrow.
because as long as it is anyone else, its not us.'


I thought it better evoked a metaphorical death than following the line:

'I am killing them'

Some lines appear sudden and forced. Some basic punctuation and capitalization errors.  One suggestion may be to try to avoid including every detail. How could this be conveyed in the below lines without overtly stating so? Perhaps the utilization of metaphor and words that provoke visual imagery. At times this piece felt a little overworked. I liked the use of metaphor and think this could be further applied in future works.

"We are not garbage

We are not disposable
We are flawed but we are worthy
We all just want to be accepted
None of us want to be the victim"