11-27-2016, 03:14 PM
I have a do it yourself aesthetic. I want to write my poems and stories and everything myself because my writing rhetoric is D.I.Y. And this may have to do a lot with how I wrote a lot of rhyming poetry when I was younger and was laughed out of the world. To me, rhyming formal poetry was poetry. And in the late '90s and early '00s I was told that was lame. Shelley, early Yeats, especially Bryon. And Robert Frost was as tame as The Cosby Show. But I kept rhyming and metering. And people kept saying, Oh, you rhyme. . . . Of course, very few people said anything at all. The few who knew the least bit about poetry said rhyme was outdated and lame. So I said, I'll not rhyme no more, I'll not be formal anymore, I'll write in my own local dialect. People said, That's racist. . . . So I said, All right, I just want my writings to sound like bad translations from the French. People said, That's pretentious. So I realized I was just going to have to write like I write, no matter what people around me thought and sa
id. I also had to face it that nobody around me knew much about poetry or read it very much.
Byron. I can't afford to make mistakes. I can't fix them. But when I don't mean to make them, I have to make a whole new message. Unless you just know and assume I can't fixem any way.
But I have a do it yourself aesthetic. A do it yourself spiritual bond with doing anything at all. People here want to workshop, and they like that artistic process, and that's fine. Outside of here, 98 percent of people don't want to read what I write, even read it at all. And two percent want to read it and put their mark on it. Two percent of people in all the world will take the time to read it, but will only take it seriously if I allow them to say, I like it but if it were me I'd . . . and put their mark on it. But I don't want them to do what they'd do. They can write their own poem. . . . I have a do it myself aesthetic and spiritual margin. And people might not like it. But I want people who don't like it not to like it. Though I do want people who do like it to like it.
And that's why I find it hard to like workshopping. Because I don't see a poem as a product like a product that's meant to be accepted, liked and bought. If you're an asshole you should be able to write asshole poems, if you're a creep you should be able to write creep poems, if you're retarded you should be able to write retarded poems. Me, I have a huge distaste for the world, so when I write poems and stories, I feel it would be dishonest to take good advise from the world I despise in writing my poems and stories. But I don't always enjoy despising or feeling uncomfortable in the world, so I take what I can from it and offer what I can to it. But I have a do it yourself aesthetic and I don't think anyone should tell me I can't have that, and I can read and listen to other people and things as much and less as I want and need to.
And it not mattering and no one being interested hasn't changed much. Because there's no Why or Who For, there used to be a Who For, but that ended up lame.
id. I also had to face it that nobody around me knew much about poetry or read it very much.
Byron. I can't afford to make mistakes. I can't fix them. But when I don't mean to make them, I have to make a whole new message. Unless you just know and assume I can't fixem any way.
But I have a do it yourself aesthetic. A do it yourself spiritual bond with doing anything at all. People here want to workshop, and they like that artistic process, and that's fine. Outside of here, 98 percent of people don't want to read what I write, even read it at all. And two percent want to read it and put their mark on it. Two percent of people in all the world will take the time to read it, but will only take it seriously if I allow them to say, I like it but if it were me I'd . . . and put their mark on it. But I don't want them to do what they'd do. They can write their own poem. . . . I have a do it myself aesthetic and spiritual margin. And people might not like it. But I want people who don't like it not to like it. Though I do want people who do like it to like it.
And that's why I find it hard to like workshopping. Because I don't see a poem as a product like a product that's meant to be accepted, liked and bought. If you're an asshole you should be able to write asshole poems, if you're a creep you should be able to write creep poems, if you're retarded you should be able to write retarded poems. Me, I have a huge distaste for the world, so when I write poems and stories, I feel it would be dishonest to take good advise from the world I despise in writing my poems and stories. But I don't always enjoy despising or feeling uncomfortable in the world, so I take what I can from it and offer what I can to it. But I have a do it yourself aesthetic and I don't think anyone should tell me I can't have that, and I can read and listen to other people and things as much and less as I want and need to.
And it not mattering and no one being interested hasn't changed much. Because there's no Why or Who For, there used to be a Who For, but that ended up lame.