09-29-2016, 11:06 AM
Unprepared
Backstage the actors wink at each other, and the actresses perfect their eyeliner. Flamboyant skirts, ruffled shirts bounce by me smiling and excited. I'm searching for a costume I've never worn, for a script I never read. No one sees me – they move seamlessly into their roles, speaking the words they've endlessly rehearsed. No one has a script when I ask, even the stagehand who says to me, "Why don't you know your lines?" as if I'm a ten year old still in diapers. I step out onto the stage, prepared to deliver a mediocre speech for some strict director, when I awake breathless, only seconds ahead of death.
*It's skeletal, but it's what I've got today. My creative juice is all gone – I should have gotten the triple pack from Costco.
*There's a phrase, "Life feels like a test I didn't study for," and it's so very true.
Backstage the actors wink at each other, and the actresses perfect their eyeliner. Flamboyant skirts, ruffled shirts bounce by me smiling and excited. I'm searching for a costume I've never worn, for a script I never read. No one sees me – they move seamlessly into their roles, speaking the words they've endlessly rehearsed. No one has a script when I ask, even the stagehand who says to me, "Why don't you know your lines?" as if I'm a ten year old still in diapers. I step out onto the stage, prepared to deliver a mediocre speech for some strict director, when I awake breathless, only seconds ahead of death.
*It's skeletal, but it's what I've got today. My creative juice is all gone – I should have gotten the triple pack from Costco.
*There's a phrase, "Life feels like a test I didn't study for," and it's so very true.