Stop looking at me like that

[just mercedes]

Don’t you THINK I know? The capitals here don't work, for me.
How alone I’ve been?
How alone I am?
Even when you’re home? I don't think every line needs a question mark.

Rocking on the bathroom floor I'm not sure who is rocking etc - the 'you' or the narrator
Back and forth back and forth
Manic laughter primal sobs
I WATCHED myself lose it Tense change

Don’t you THINK I know?
How bad it is?
How far I’ve fallen?
Everything I’ve lost? Again, no need for all the questions marks

Grieving into the silence
Screaming myself numb
My toes were frozen on the tile
I SAW my crazy eyes reflected Uneasy change from present to past - was that intended?

Who the hell was there?
Whose arms wrapped tightly
Around my shoulder blades
In the dark at 3am?

Hi Skye - I like the sense of strangeness that comes from your poem. I'm not sure who you're addressing though, whether it's another person, or your divided psyche. I'd like to read this with more punctuation added, and minus the caps at the start of every line.