I Am No Victim

[i.might.be.a.bit.sad]

Usually they start with the victim.
I walked in on you and her.
But you walked in on me, him
me, him.
I was going to say it was only once
(it wasn’t)
or that is was a mistake
(it was).
You left quietly,
no longer chatting away,
and the remains of my excuses dried on my skin.
I used all of the hot water
(you left a lot)
and all the soap
(all the soap that didn’t smell like you)
and scoured the guilt off of me.
I packed, emailed the landlord, and bought a one way ticket to
wherever.

I need another shower.