Why I Couldn't Love You

[hopefularahant]

I loved you,
    but not really.

I loved you
    Like a blind man loves light,
                   attached to the misunderstood idea.

Because he does not know that light can be horrible-
flashing, red
blue
white
red
as you wait up for a child or a lover,
light can be under a bathroom door after a meal, the color of worry,
or light can be flashing off a blade in your hand, the sharp white of desperation.

I loved you
     as you deserved,
wary of the hurt you would cause.

I think you have a really good idea going with the blind person and light metaphor. Unfortunately, i think the true meaning of the poem, being love, or why person A couldnt love person B, is totally lost. I was left with no understanding of the poems title, and i wasnt left with any real insights about love. The images and metaphor surrounding light are good, but the last stanza and the second seem to be speaking of completely different things. In the beginning you write that person A loved person B like a blind man loves light, misunderstood and all, and then you say person A loved warily. And the first two lines say person A didnt really love person B all that much, which is again different from the other two statements. The line breaks are kind of just there in some cases, and could use some work. Also, punctuation. I am guilty of this often. Be sure to read your poem with no line breaks, and see if it makes any grammatical sense as far as punctuation goes.
Just my opinion