02-20-2015, 05:55 AM
He leaned over me, gaining leverage, showing his face:
mixed, 20, top.
I leaned into the bed, bracing and nervous for the first time.
My eyes were caked-over
as I pulled out my iPhone, clicking the yellow masquerade icon*,
latent, behind a folder.
His profile picture was touched-up.
I accepted, and he entered my address into his iPhone.
I told him my name was Chase, to shield me;
I also told him I was 18, to shield him.
The screen was glossy.
His skin was cold.
My hands were moist.
I had scrolled through a catalog of human faces,
and chosen the square photograph he had uploaded:
not a face, but a mechanical display of ones and zeros,
adjacent in an endless list without a pattern: 1 0 1 0 0 0 1 1 0. . .
He loomed over me.
I felt a metal rod puncture me.
I shivered in simultaneous success and pain.
I let out a forced grunt, lowering my voice to a socially accepted pitch.
He continued, with his one in my zero,
intermittently sending out signals,
like a metal antenna,
mechanical, with no passionate rhythm.
*The display for Grindr, a gay hookup app for smartphones.
mixed, 20, top.
I leaned into the bed, bracing and nervous for the first time.
My eyes were caked-over
as I pulled out my iPhone, clicking the yellow masquerade icon*,
latent, behind a folder.
His profile picture was touched-up.
I accepted, and he entered my address into his iPhone.
I told him my name was Chase, to shield me;
I also told him I was 18, to shield him.
The screen was glossy.
His skin was cold.
My hands were moist.
I had scrolled through a catalog of human faces,
and chosen the square photograph he had uploaded:
not a face, but a mechanical display of ones and zeros,
adjacent in an endless list without a pattern: 1 0 1 0 0 0 1 1 0. . .
He loomed over me.
I felt a metal rod puncture me.
I shivered in simultaneous success and pain.
I let out a forced grunt, lowering my voice to a socially accepted pitch.
He continued, with his one in my zero,
intermittently sending out signals,
like a metal antenna,
mechanical, with no passionate rhythm.
*The display for Grindr, a gay hookup app for smartphones.