monotone mandatory

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monotone mandatory

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Sorry,
my thrill has escaped me.

I've been here before,
with other people at a different time.
Actively skeptical of things that  unwind.

I'm weary of good opportunities.
Excitement leads to tragedy,
then my world will stop.

Often, I try to remember the kid I use to be.
A young man with passion and direction.
No limits to his potentials end.

That seemed like lives ago.
Before I felt the need leave my home.


Then life changed.
My reality had become unique.

Everything I thought was happening
could be critiqued.

Now my mood is stable,
I speak in a monotone pitch. 

Like a man who has earned but not reaped. 
Constantly retrying to earn his keep.

Sorry that your enthusiasm is not shared,
because I always got to be prepared.
To lose all the moments we have fared.

Until then, I trust you'll understand
that I must do what I can.

So that you will not disappear 
like another lost friend.



Original

Sorry,
my thrill has escaped me.

I've been here before,
with other people at a different time.
Actively skeptical of things that can unwind.

I have to be weary of good opportunities.
Excitement leads to tragedy, then my world
will stop.

Often, I try to remember kid I use to be.
Seems distant as if reflecting on an old friend;
a young man with passion and direction.
No limits to his potentials end.

That seemed like lives ago.
Before I felt the need leave my home.

It was then that life changed.
A doctor informed me that 
my reality had become unique.

Everything I thought was happening
could be critiqued.

Now that I am grown
my mood is stable,
I speak in a monotone pitch. 

Like a man who has earned but not reaped. 
Constantly retrying to earn his keep.

So I am sorry that your enthusiasm is not shared,
because I always got to be prepared.
To lose all the moments we have fared.

Until then, I trust you'll understand
that I must do what I can.

So that you will not disappear 
like another lost friend.