Have you ever been cheated on?

[billy]

I used to beg my ex to go to a prostitute or have an affair, anything to get him to leave me alone after I'd had a baby and an episiotomy... but no luck there. Then I found that I wished he'd beat me or do something that would get other people to understand how abused I really was -- but those scars don't show and people only want to know about bruises and broken bones.

So no, I haven't been cheated on. I just really selfishly left someone who had systematically destroyed everything that made me me. He even set fire to all my notebooks and formatted the computer so that I had no record of any creativity for the 13 years we'd been together. Yes, it was partly my fault. I had been a trusting 19-year-old who thought that the attention of an older man was flattering, especially after he convinced me that he provided the only attention I'd ever get. Even now, a good few years down the track, he believes he did nothing wrong.

been wondering how to reply because we're on about personal shit (relationships) i think destroy creativity, let alone the creativity of the person you're supposed to love is is one of the cruellest cuts of all. specially if it's something you love. in that respect i was lucky. i had nothing like that of value to myself. (okay, my kids but i understand that's not the same thing) i'm not sure i could have dealt with it if i had.