Painful Confusion

[dandan]

(quick note: I'm new here, but I've always loved poetry. looking forward to any thoughts you may have on what I've written!)


Somewhere, someone has a remote control,
They have it set to fast forward.
Everything is rushing past: noises, sights, thoughts.
They keep raising the volume.
They keep changing the channel.
Loud, loud pain between my ears,
Amplified by blurring scenes too quick to grasp.
It's all so fast,
So loud,
So confusing.

I want to ask them to stop,
"Please sir, you have the wrong remote",
When I realize something in my left hand.
There it is, my name printed clear as day at the top,
With its buttons all askew.
It's as confused as I.
How can I know which easy is forward?
Which way is right?
With a faulty remote.
It's all so wrong,
So jumbled,
So confusing.

As I try pressing other buttons,
I realize I've found the one to my heart.
Sorry. Bliss. Anger. Boredom.
My facial expressions quickly change to match each passing emotion.
Suddenly I'm crying,
Tear after tear,
until there are none left.
Only I don't feel any better,
In fact I feel empty.
Emptied of any emotion at all.
This is so strange,
So sad,
So confusing.

My face void of emotion,
My mind abuzz,
I don't know what to do.