Taking back my power

[inthedeep]

Today I'm taking back my power
And I want to let you know
I'm no longer yours to control
It's time for you to go

No longer will I think of you
I will not speak your name
You've brought nothing but pain to me
And unimaginable shame

But I realise now that it's not me
Who should feel the guilt and blame
Because it's you who made the choice
To hurt me like its just a game

The really sad part about all this
Is that I'm not even sure
That you realise what you stole from me
And left shattered on the floor

You had no right to pressure me
It was my choice to make
You stole a little piece of me
It wasn't yours to take

Too many nights I've laid awake
While tears run down my face
I've pushed away the ones I love
And stayed in this dark place

I see you in my dreams at night
I want these thoughts to go away
I relive every moment 
As if it were yesterday

You've made me feel like I'm alone
Can't let anybody in
My thoughts and fears I cannot share 
Coz of the pain I'm in

I've let you control my heart and mind
I've struggled every day
But for the first time today I realised
I gave my power away

So today I'm taking back my power
And I will not allow
You to steal one more second of my life
I'm calling the shots now

I pity you, one day you'll meet
My God and have to explain
Why you thought it was ok
To cause His precious daughter pain

So I'm getting on with my life
No more drama, no more tears
I won't let you ruin my life
I'm stronger than I appear

I choose to not feel hate for you
I have better things to do
My revenge comes in being awesome
While you continue being you