Suicide Note

[heslopian]

I am tired.
Tired of the trees outside the window
that greet me each morning like a bell.
Ring ring, ring ring.
The infernal green song.
Tired of the neighbour's dog
that confuses aggression with love.
The high school dropout who delivers our post,
his eyes bleary from last night's weed.
I think of all the great ideas
he must have had and then forgot
while cruising the leaf's highway.
It tires me no end.
I'm tired of making you breakfast at six,
kissing you goodbye, watching the magazine programmes
then sewing a shroud for my life.
Of wondering if Tony's wife
ever feels like I do now, and if she fears the mystery
of leaving this white hell. All I know is that I fear
growing old among these chairs, the wallpaper you won't take down,
fearing extravagance, and that I fear it more than death.

[billy]

i thought it quite profound, some good 1st person lines.
make this personal to us all. what i do think is that;
'That is all there is to say.' seems to be a misnomer the reason
say that is because you then continue with lots of other stuff.
other than that, i thought it a good example of a working class
pov wife who's had enough.
i like the personal touch of;

Of wondering if Tony's wife.

i feel as though you're talking to me.
thanks for the read.

[heslopian]

I see your point about "that is all there is to say." I think I'll remove it. Thanks for the kind words and feedback Bilbo. This was somewhat inspired by the life of Anne Sexton.

[Todd]

Wonderful lines Jack.

I agree with Billy's point. To my mind a suicide note is what you want to tell them, often not what they need to know.

I love the brilliant tree lines and the fact that the speaker knows Tony will never leave her and even if he did there would be the same soul-destroying banal life.

This makes me want to try my own suicide note...um in a poem

[heslopian]

haha Well I should hope you mean in a poem! Thanks for the kind words Todd.

[addy]

This is very poignant. i love the dog line, it was very astute and sad as it implied something about the general state of humanity. As billy said, quite profound. Thanks for the read.

[heslopian]

Thanks for the kind words Addy